dynasticism

been seeing loads of it recently. not really sure what to make of it. people whose time is up and yet trying so hard to reverse this process to stay relevant and all. is it a singaporean thing? or is it just a pure unadulterated effort to see things run smoothly beyond their dynasty?
I don;t know, and i would not want to find out. Would i do something so well that i would make others miss me when i am gone? or would i leave behind enough for others to fall back on? or maybe i m the type who will not do anything at all, so i won;t be missed in the first place.

bank runs

speculation hurts.

cost-benefit analysis. my way

do i just work hard when it really matters?
one question that i have been asking myself today.
does having good work ethics mean striving for the best
even if there are not much/no benefits gained from it?
so much for cost-benefit analysis.

felt that i had written the worst term paper in the 3 semesters i have been in nus
by equating the effort spent in brainstorming, looking for sources etc.
but somehow its the best result i have ever gotten.
tutor's leinient, but lets push that aside.

still remember this time last year when i took a 1.5hr bus ride from school to tampines
just so to find a book to photocopy
for a hy1101e essay
and then off to changi v to look at trannies plying their trade
for a se1101e project
at 12mn
not that i am damn proud of how hard i worked
but glad that i valued my first nus essay/assignment high enough to do such things
that i would deem excessive today.
have i lost some of that freshie fire?
i suppose i have.
growing to be a little more cynical and devious in the way i do things.
taking the easy way out here and there.
but gaining less satisfaction everytime i do so.

i would toss my hy1101e essay around even tho it was just an ok/decent grade.
knowing that it was 1 whole weekend + 2-3 weekdays worth of PURE effort.
i was so glad when my hy tutor commented that my links were really good
even if it was a b+
it didnt matter
kinda feel my current work seems just so bland and sterile.
not much effort put into it
didnt feel much when i saw that a

once again, so much for cost-benefit analysis.
interesting paradox, really

guess at the end of the day
we realise that
highest satisfaction
does not come from minimum cost, maximum benefit.
or rather

maximum cost, maximum benefit.
when you feel you thoroughly deserve what you are getting.
sadly, in this time and age, no one bothers about the toil beneath
the finished article.

could i live on this maxim, at least for this semester?
time will tell
i guess not
but i could try.
starting from my macroecons tutorial
bothering to do it even tho it does not matter.

its never such simple isn't it?

now,
i cant believe that my soci lecturer is a pastor too.
interesting research he is doing
christian perspective on inter faith dialogues
pricky subject yes.
but yeah, its hard for the exclusivitist mentality of the christian faith
to be masked
and not to antagonize religious sensitivities during such sessions.
aversions to such events are rife, as stats show.
respect, tolerance,
does acceptance fit in?

random postings

just got reminded i m turning older
havent got time to think about it
but i guess past few ones havent been too nice to remember
i woke up at 330 am 3 years ago to run an ahm
blew 200+ on a suit
and woke up 330 am 2 years ago to lug a suitcase in imf-suntec
imagine being in formal attire in a tonner
the weird things saf can do to you.
but then you know, things cant get any worse than that.

just spent some money on clothes
and i was told i dun need any more
true enough, prolly i dun need
but i want
and i guess that is reason enough.

so, in the past few weeks
i needed a camera,
i needed a mp3 player, i m still convincing myself that i need it
i wanted some clothes
i needed a decent watch

some were sponsored with lots of sibling love.
yeah i need that.
needs > wants
well i m not so bad.

smiles again

what a difference a month makes =3